Some days are hard

Today William came home with a red face. Today is also the day I got a call from the choir teacher at church... About William. I threatened spankings and I withheld his tablet. I made him repeat after me.... "I will do what the teacher says!"
We ran a race today going from school to the dentist to a showing to grabbing dinner to eating fast to rushing to church for choir.... To nothing. He didn't want to go. He fought me at the door. So today I stopped. I let Alex go in the class and I sat outside in the hallway with my youngest in my arms just hugging and kissing and talking to him. I tried to ask him what was going on but in the realm of a 5 year old.. There's not much they understand about why they are acting a certain way.
And so we just snuggled. On the floor of the church hallway, in a dress, with my baby in  my lap. He still fits.. For now. We push and pull from school to home to homework to sports to dinner to bed. There's no time to connect. No time to just stop and be. No time for our littles to decompress and be.. Little.
So, he had a bad day. Don't we all. I'll cut him some slack today and hope that tomorrow the extra love and attention was just what my little man needed. God help me the day he doesn't need his mommy to hold him anymore.