Tuesday, October 27, 2015
I realized something lately. My daughter has grown. Yes, I know she is going to grow but I haven't kept up. I will listen to her talk or watch her walk across the room and think to myself, "who is that?" I am sad about that fact but today I had the revelation as to why. I have been so wrapped up in surviving the boys for the past year, I think I missed the evolution of my other baby into a girl. It didn't help that time the boys were born she started real school. Our days that used to be filled with mommy/daughter time were suddenly skimpy moments; a little in the morning, a little in the afternoon, and maybe a spot right before bed. To have my attention divided from one to three was probably devastating for her. It's apparent in the acting out that she has done. I have not handled it well either. I've snapped when I shouldn't. I've yelled way too loud. I've spanked before talking. I have been too stretched to always be the best mom to her.
And today I looked across the room to see a girl where my baby used to be.. With opinions and beliefs and a will that just won't quit.. And I feel like I don't know her like I once did. This makes me sad.
Monday, October 12, 2015
Addison turns 7 this month. A fact she has been letting me know since the day after she turned 6.
Alex is so smart. He really does understand and respond to most anything I say. Will is just sweetness incarnate. He has learned to give hugs. I am literally in heaven. I wish I could freeze their innocence for a bit.. Their absolute love for me. Addison is like talking to a grown woman sometimes. She can amaze and anger me in the same split second. A talent the child who is most like you has. If I could only convey the fullness of my heart at this very minute....you wouldn't even be able to stand it.